Flip Flopper

Thats me. I'm the flip flopper. Or at least thats how I feel. I am one of those people that has a really difficult time making a decision. It could be as simple as picking out something out of a menu for dinner at a restaurant or as huge as school? no school? family now? wait on family? I don't know why it has to be so difficult for me. I don't know if it has something to do with how I was raised - I constantly changed my mind as a young adult, first I wanted to dance, so I took dance for 8ish years, then I wanted to join girl scouts, that lasted for about a year, then I wanted to swim on the swim team, that lasted a year and a half. Am I a quitter? Do I get bored easily? probably a little of both. I would like to believe that i'm not a quitter, but I certianly get bored easily.

I always told myself after the wedding I would buckle down and finish school. Well, these past few weeks a few other ideas snuck into my head. When do we want to start a family? What about you incessant love for photography? Why don't you jump on that? What about Mike? What about work? and $$? You just got married two months ago, do you want to completely lean on your new husband or do you want to make money on your own? I guess I just doubt myself a lot, maybe its my lack of self-confidence in making change. I'm not good with big life changes like this. I have gone through a lot with my recent lay off with Beneficial, my new marriage, and now going back to school full time. Its not like this whole school thing is new, i've been taking classes part time for the past year, its just committing myself to leaving my job to go back full time. Thats the scary part.

But, i'm going to do it. I'm going to take the plunge and go for it. I'm going to at least finish my associates degree and see where I stand from there. This is it, no more doubts, no more questions, no turning back.